Vicki (vickionline) wrote in binge_me_sane,

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I am Bingeing

sinxe starting school in january, i have been watching my calories and losing weight, i lost about 25 lbs so far
then about a week and a half ago, i started bingeing

i've been eating loads of packs of those "100 calorie" pack snacks and all the smart ones dessertws, i ate an entire box of weight watchers choc choc chip muffins
eating healthy choice ice cream sandwiches

i know that whats started this is financial troubles, and i am lonely and dont have a support network

the thing is i am studying kinesiology and i want to be a fitness trainer

i weigh 267lbs!
my goal is to lose weight and exercise my ass off, i actually LOVE exercising
but i havent even been going to my exercise classes (except yoga) cause i have just been depressed and after i get off work i've been going home and eating, eating, eating, and being online, get to sleep at like midnight and wake up at like 7am
i am supposed to be in bed at 9pm and wake up at 4:45am so i can go to my morning aerobic class

the problem is the only thing that brings me any joy is tasting that sweet food in my mouth
i was doing so well
tomorrow i am supposed to head back into the gym, in the am, one of my co workers wants me to do the yoga class at 6am tomorrow with her, i am hoping this is the chance for me to get back on track because i hate falling off the wagon
and i am on prozac and everything and its supposed to stabilize my mood, but my financial problems are so large it just makes it hard for me to cope
and i cope by eating
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aw honey, i can't say I know exactly how you feel, because I'm not you.
But I'm in a similar situation..

perhaps the prozac just isn't working for you-- not every drug works for every person. Are you getting counselling along with the pills? Pills alone usually don't work as well.
Honey, take a deep breath. This is a phase, I know that is seems like it will never end, but it will. There is a light at the end of the tunnel; and I promise it's not an oncoming dragon. ;)

*hugs you*

some advice that's worked for me: try not to stay in the house.
And just get up (with an alarm clock or something) at the desired time; put the alarm on the other side of the room, so you have to walk to it (if I can hit it from my bed, I'm doomed). And just go. Even if you went to bed at midnight, and you get 4 hours of sleep.
By the end of the day (before midnight) you ought to be gettin' sleepy, and just go to bed.

also try not to be online. This one is a killer for me.
limit yourself, and just go make a cup of tea and shut down the computer.

I hope this was at least a little helpful for you. :)
I'm rootin' for ya.
I commend you for taking action and actually exercising instead of just starving yourself. Wish I could say I am doing the same. Problem is, I am so self-concious, I feel like I won't be able to step into a gym unless I'm at least some what presentable, and I just don't feel it. Strange, I know, but the gym I go to is the University gym and everyone there is like super toned and fit to begin with, and i dont' want to risk feeling embarrased. I know I shouldn't care, but i can't help it. I feel like having gained 35 lbs has debilitated me -- even stepping outside of my apartment is a nightmare for me and something I like to avoid at all costs.

Good job and keep at it!!